Wow, long time no see!
I've had a bit of
a rough month. I haven't been as attentive as I should have been and as a
result, a few things have happened.
1. The
schedule of my life has been funky.
2. I've lost
touch with some friends.
3. New
situations have taken me by surprise and I’ve been pretty lost.
But no more!!
Now, I'm not
saying I’ve become a bad person or anything, but I’ve been coasting, that's for
sure, and it has to stop. The road to awesomeness is full of tough choices,
but they are worth it.
Tonight I want to
talk about humility and faith. Over Thanksgiving Break, my mom told me that
I need to be more humble. I didn't realize for a while just how right she
was. I tend to justify myself a lot, and feel like I don't need to worry,
that I can handle anything. But I’m not that strong, and I’m far from
perfect. I realize that I wish I were more humble, you get blessings!
Alma 32:12 links humility with wisdom. As a sophomore at BYU,
trying to get into the very competitive Accounting program in the Marriott
Business School, I need all the wisdom I can get. Think about it; are you
as humble as you could be? I'm not. Even this blog shows that!
Part of my reasoning behind it is that someone could learn something from
me, as if I know more than people about the gospel!! How conceited is
that? I apologize! I promise now I will try to keep this as a
record of what I learn only.
Anyway, in the
same chapter of Alma is the famous comparison of faith to a seed. I think
most of us know how it goes. Plant the seed of faith. If it grows,
great, it's a good seed, take care of it! I never really thought about
the other side. If it doesn't grow, it's a bad seed, throw it out.
This can be for
more than faith. It can be for choosing a major, testing a new medicine,
or beginning a new relationship. Try it, take care of it. If it's good, it will grow, if not, it won't,
get rid of it. I myself have a bit of trouble with the 'get rid of it'
part. It's hard for me to let something go that I’ve cared for, no matter
what. But I guess that's my pride again. My time is not so precious
that I shouldn't admit to a mistake and change. Darn the difficulty I
have to try. Here's to change, I'm so
grateful that I can. Wouldn't it be awful to be stuck at subpar forever?
All right well
it's late, and my emotions are a bit raw, so I bid you goodnight.
