The Condescension of God

I'm feeling horribly impatient, and yet excited right now.

Everything in my life is pointing to a mission right now, almost as if I'm walking down a path with giant arrows with flashing lights all around the edges, with the sound of my favorite song and the smell of my favorite food down at the end.  Unfortunately there's also a sign that tells me the traffic conditions and how long it will take me to get there.  Almost eight months!  It's amazing how three years to a mission was fine and far enough away for me and no suddenly I'm dying with two thirds of a year to go.  It's only been two weeks that my life has been like this.  Best two weeks of my life. Not the easiest, not by a long shot, but definitely the most rewarding as of yet.

Today I thought a lot about the Savior.  Last night I had a talk with Rachel about it.  Rachel is another Hinckley RA.  We were talking about Jesus and the sacrifices he made for us.  It hit us last night that Christ was judged beyond anything anyone else ever could be.  He was (and is) the literal Son of God, the one and only perfect being to live on the Earth.  He did no wrong and could be blamed for nothing.  Yet those Pharisees and Scribes and Sadducees who essentially devoted their lives to His word called Him a blasphemer, and of the devil.  That is about as far away as you can possibly get from the true nature of Christ. Yet Jesus meekly submitted to their judgement, even until they sentenced Him to death for his "sins."  If this had happened to anyone who was not Christ, it would have been humiliating!  Being destroyed by those whose job it is to know you because they did not recognize you.

The fact that He allowed it to happen so that I might be forgiven and resurrected is the greatest act of love that I can possibly imagine.  I am so grateful for His sacrifice.  Taking the sacrament today was a great experience, because I thought of what led to it, and some of the pain and love that was put into it.  I felt like shouting hallelujah when it entered my mind.  

I didn't though, I decided not to disturb those in my ward who were also having a spiritual experience.